南宫踏慧

               Today my mood is very bad, could not endure, I once again sad cry!

As a woman, mother, wife, family struggling, I confused, how the road go?! I don't know, why must I shouldn't have come to this world, all because of me. One man's fault to the child brought unnecessary trouble, maybe she is right, but I don't have too much, just a good friend only, there can be no other ideas, I love my children, I have an obligation to give them a complete home, for me it's not for a long time. If there is an afterlife, I must be happy for their own to create a perfect home!

              Lovely child of your idea is correct, but now you will not understand my mother 's heart, I believe that one day you will understand! He met feel helpless, in addition to my tired and sad and worry, originally is a man thing, why the pressure on me? This world is not fair!

Surface you see my smile and strong, but the heart of who can understand?! Sometimes tired, want to find someone to talk just talk. But he can't give me more time and I physical difficult, I have no luck in this life, next life I could never marry him, even as a nun.

No matter how home also I braced, cry funny or also smile to life, maybe my life owe him which, I can spend the rest of my life was over. I hope my kids grow up healthy, don't hate me this incompetent mother, this is my biggest wish, other are nothing to me!      

      Now  I   need   someone  to  taik  to!