静夜无人

Once more you open the door, and you are here in my heart.
 I found you missing when I came back today, and I searched several hours until it turns to darkness. You may don't like our home and want to return to the wild nature, I think so firstly cause you sat on the plat of window everyday, maybe that's your continued willing justburied in your heart long long ago. So my dear I do not expect you can come back by yourself. I asked my roommates to take care of you during my business trip, and he is not good at providing protection to pets, he is so sorry to me just now and I think its not his problem but if you stay there you need to adapt the environment, the boring life with only food and water, no joy,  no fun, and no changing except your ages. I know you since you are very little child, do you remember that time when you lost your way in the heavy rain, and you came to me, followed me, shouted at me with begging eyes, do you remember you were in deep sick at that time, pee and stool everywhere in my house. Once you are the hope of life meaning to me, I just tried my best to take care of you as my first and only child, sorry I'm in emotion now, you grasp my feeling, you get to know me very well, and I know you very well too. I just have no time to say to you sometime, and I was wrong of thinking that you can understand me when I touch your head, your body, your skin, slowly with soft and tender, when our eyes met together. I regard you as my precious baby and darling.
Once I was thinking you would go back to your own home, find your families, mother, father, sister and brotheres. After all you are alone now, you have grown to adult, more than four months old. As someone famous said your character is individualism. You will go to anywhere to find your delicious food or comfortable life no matter what kind of relationship will break up, so sooner or later we will separate and go our own way, as indicated from beginning. I thought many times what the scene is when we divorce apart because I have no time to stay with you, or no food to feed you, or boring life make me have no lovely heart, and I have to send you back to the original place where I take you from, the community among surrounding structures. But now, ash, no need any more. Another thing I have to say, what is the most important thing in your life, wealth? food and drink? pleasure? freedom? health?position? And what is worth you takethe risk of your life, twice jump from six floor, it must be a sort of very strong desire to go further step to a new world, new field you never know, maybe to find your born place, to be together with your families, to find a handsome boyfriend and marry with him, by the way is it allowed or not at your age? Ok, have fun, my girl. You may lose the rest of you life, or being ignored with hungry stomach, or even to be hurt heavily by some dangerous smiling faces, its your choice, I admit it with respect. 
May 1st 2013 to Sep. 12th 2013, epitaph, your sincerely friend,brother,father,kidnapper,lord